Swooping season

The sun was shining brightly and for once the wind had stopped howling in the valley. It was a quiet day. Apart from the insane pecking and fluttering of a lone magpie lark. They're not the brightest of birds, and this one - I'm sure it's the same one - is a frequent visitor to the office I work in. He has been working his way around all the windows and doors, attempting to scare away the other bird he sees reflected back at him. A year on, and he's still doing battle with himself several times a day. He's obviously stubborn beyond mere human understanding.

In so many ways this bird, pecking away at the glass, fluttering to try and make himself seem bigger and more important, is representative of the residents of the estate I work on. In fact, I think they should take him as their mascot. We're in the process of commissioning artwork, a series of totem poles to be erected near a major pathway. Birds will feature pretty strongly. I'm putting forward the mud lark as my suggestion. The only other bird that could even be considered is the greedy sea gull, who appear to have become confused enough to think that the lake is a small inland sea. They are greedy, noisy, and leave a mess behind for me to clean up after them. But they still have more brains than the mud lark.

I stand by my first verdict. If you have to choose a bird to represent our residents, it has to be one of the most stupid, petty, stubbornly aggressive birds in the country. The magpie lark it is.

Raging Bullsh*t

I feel the need for a rant. Much the same way that I felt the need to yell at slow drivers, slow pedestrians, stupid people and anyone who happened to get in my way on the way home from work. If I'd thought it would have changed anything, I would even have contemplated yelling at people at work, like the guy who drives me insane at the best of times, but burst out laughing for no apparent reason when I was the only person nearby.

Most of all, I would have gone to the guy in human resources who manages payroll, and I would have given him a memorable bollocking for screwing up my bonus payment - or hopefully screwing it up, because otherwise I'm getting taxed at a rate somewhere north of 50 cents in the dollar. I don't make that much money in the first place, but to lose half the bonus that is supposed to even the playing field a little, makes me see red, feel red, be red.

Yep. Once again, my lovely employers have short changed me. And this time it's not through anything stupid I may have miscalculated. After waiting patiently all day for the money to land in my bank account, I nearly fell off my chair when it did arrive. Less than half the figure I had been told as the before tax amount. When the rushing sound in my ears went down a little, I began to consider my options and do some calculations. And I'm out of there. One way or another, I'm leaving. It's all a question of how soon I can get my ducks in a row and skedaddle.

I'm sick of the crap conditions, the annoying people, the pathetic pay, and the fact that being in government means we are under constant scrutiny and don't even get to let our hair down with a decent Christmas party. I hate that I can spend a day in head office and the only person who talks to me is the guy beside me, who says hi when I sit down and bye when I leave, and my brother's girlfriend, who works upstairs. I. hate. my. job. It's reached the point where I'm angry and frustrated enough to do something about it, beyond ranting on my blog.

It might not have been so bad if I hadn't found out a few other things today. Like my brother's much less qualified girlfriend is on significantly more cash than me. Her colleague, who is in a role junior to mine, is also on more than me, although not much. Her bonus is almost $2000 more than mine, however. Anyone who didn't know would think that I don't work bloody hard dealing with the morons and fielding the front line enquiries, keeping things on an even keel and burying how much I dislike what I'm doing, having sold out almost every belief I assembled during all my years of study.

So come Monday, when she's back from leave, I'm asking my boss if she'll be a referee for me. Tomorrow, I'm stomping my way to pay roll and demanding the rest of my bonus. And now, I'm consoling myself with the thought of what takeaway I can pick up from somewhere close, even though I've already changed into comfy trackies and a hideous by cosy cardy. Hell, last time I checked KFC didn't have a dress code on the drive through. I'm going to be cruising job sites and marking out potentials. I've already updated my CV recently. And until I can start sending it out, I'm looking at vintage dresses. Yep. Junk food and shopping, soothing the savage beast within. Or they would be if my bonus hadn't been so pathetically small that I can't really afford to buy anything. Stupid bastards.

Two strikes

It's been one of those days. It started with allergies, cleared up in the middle, and is ending with some sort of nightmarish sequence of stupid events and unhealthy levels of failure at anger management. Perhaps I should just start with some of the good bits, and let it progress from there.

Today is my sister-in-law's birthday, an occasion that my mother used as an excuse to test the waters of my brothers' new tolerance for each other. It's a long time since they would be able to be in the same room with each other, let alone the slight thawing of their demeanour which has seen them both participating in the same conversation - although still not talking directly to each other. Between them cracking jokes at either end of the table, and my two year old whirlwind of a niece playing up for her audience, the night was going pretty well. Some quiet chat with Mum and Dad afterwards - yes, I know, it's sad, but when you're single and broke you have to make the most of all interaction, not to mention the free food that comes with one of Mum's cooking spectaculars - and I was ready to head home and throw my phone on the charge. A bit of light reading before bed while I got some juice back into the batteries, to make sure it would last the night and wake me up in the morning. It just flashed at me with a battery warning light when I tried to make it do something. Note to self: leaving the MSN app running in the background all day chews through batteries like nothing else.

So I packed my many bags of goodies and headed homewards, feeling pretty safe in the knowledge that the flatmate would have arrived home before me and, if not warmed the flat, at least put the bins out. Sadly, no. As I parked my car, I drove past both of the bins which should have been on the nature strip. A quick check of the letterbox revealed that it was also not as it should have been. Thinking flatmate mustn't be home yet, I trudged up the stairs and rummaged in my bag for my keys.

Not there.

A vision came to me of throwing them on my desk at work, and another, later vision, of them being under a pile of papers. Still. And my phone was dead. But when I reached the top of the stairs, thinking to have another good rummage in my Tardis of a handbag, I noticed that the security door was ajar. Flatmate must be home, thank god, I thought, willing to overlook transgressions of bin and letterbox maintenance in return for being let in. I pushed the button for the doorbell, and waited.

Fine, I thought, when two more pushes had failed to yield a flatmate. She's probably in her room - where else would she be, actually? - so I'll just knock. Now I have a truly fearsome rap when I'm trying to get in somewhere. Not only has it terrified schoolies into quietude in beachside hotels, it has brought the rowdiest of neighbours to turn down their stereos. It's a knock worthy of the old ladies who live downstairs and sit in judgement on the goings on of the flats. A truly fantastic weapon to have in your arsenal when you're locked out and your apparently partially deaf flatmate is inside. Make that completely deaf. She didn't come to the door. OK, I told myself. It's 10:30, she might just be security conscious. I called out. Nothing. I thought I could hear running water inside, so I waited for it to stop and then tried again. Nada.

By this point I was fuming. Not only had she not put out the bins, but she was leaving me locked out on a bloody cold night. And this following hard on the heels of the Great Cooking Mess of 2011. Not going well at all, here. I knew what I had to do, but I was dreading doing it. Finally getting angry enough, I stormed downstairs and back to my car, bag of leftovers over my wrist. Throwing the car into gear and speeding onto the roads, I headed back to Mum and Dad's to pick up my spare keys, just hoping that they hadn't gone to bed yet, and that a knock on the door at 10:45 wouldn't give them heart failure.

An angry rant and a serious risk of speeding fines later, and my spare keys let me into the flat. The only sign that flatmate had been home, other than the unlocked wire door, was the firmly closed bedroom door, as opposed to the slightly ajar state that it gets left in when she's not home.

Banging and clattering around for a bit to get my own back, I decided to open the mail. One of the letters was a warning about an outstanding amount of rent, which I had tried without success to chase up before. This time it was different, and I felt like screaming. The amount listed as the rent we should be paying is $4 a month more than the weekly calculation suggests it should be. That's the difference in the rent that they are chasing. If they really want the extra 84 cents a week, the bastards can fight for it. I'm in no mood to be trifled with, and, based on the mounting headache, it's a mood that will linger through until morning. That this is the second time they've attempted to extract the cash from me has made me think that, as much as I love the flat, I may be moving on come September when the lease is up. Heaven help them if they fight back against the logical arguments I will attempt to make. Because I sure as hell won't.

Domestic Bliss

It's a few months now since the decision to get a flatmate. She moved in, and nothing has really been quite the same since. You'd hope I meant that in a good way, but really, no. It's not that we hate each other, or bicker, or anything drastic, really. But there is a chronic incompatibility looming on the horizon, and I don't think she's even noticed it.

She's a nice enough person, I suppose. Quite friendly, not hugely annoying, and keeps very much to herself. In fact most of the time, I'm not entirely sure if she's home or not. I have to peek through cracks or look for light shining under doors to get a sense of whether I'm alone or potentially have company. The general consensus is that it's an odd relationship in the flat. And that was before she started eating all of her meals in her room, as well spending the rest of her time holed up in there. In some respects, I guess she's the perfect flatmate. She pays bills on time, she's quiet, and she never hogs the couch or forces me to watch TV shows I don't like. But although I'm never sure of her current presence or absence, I can usually tell when she's been around.

Now I'm not the greatest with all things housekeeping. I vacuum the carpets once a month if I'm lucky, and do the shower once a quarter. Dishes are washed only when the pile on the sink gets too precarious, or there's a danger of being so many that need washing that they won't fit on the dish drainer. If I remember to change my sheets regularly, and actually have them washed by the time it occurs to me to change them again, I'm doing pretty well. But there are some things that I figure it's only fair to keep on top of when you're sharing. I think it would have been even more important if that sharing involved the use of someone else's things. But no, apparently not.

When I moved into this flat, everything I owned was new. Except my couch. And my kitchen table. And the antique bits and pieces. But you get the picture. The plates had never been eaten off. The sheets had never been slept on. The towels had never been used. The saucepans had never cooked anything. It was all still in quite good shape when she moved in. That can no longer be said about some things. It's to the point where, after helping me out while I was laid up with my back, my mother has been forced to offer me advice on how to get the saucepans back into something like a good condition, after months of things being cooked onto the sides. You can pick which pans she uses most often; they're the ones which are the most filthy outside, to the point that I can't get them clean even with steel wool, and have a soap scum residue inside them. You're supposed to wash pans AFTER cooking, not before.

And I could write it off if it was just pans, even if my pointed scrubbing of pans I haven't used has failed to have an effect (passive aggressive behaviour? perhaps, but direct suggestions for a cleaning roster have failed to have any impact). But being flat out with back pain and seeing your flatmate take the vacuum out for the first time ever, only to do her own room, having never cleaned the shower, never mopped any of the floors, it's getting a little much. I think the final straw came this weekend.

I haven't been using the cooktop much recently, at least partly because of the depressing state of my pans. But it drove me to the point of action on Saturday. I tried to clean the cooktop, because it was beginning to look like a bio-hazard; baked on sauce, overspill, actual chunks of food. But it wouldn't just wipe down. It required an actual cleaning product. I've never had to use a product to clean a cooktop before, I've always been able to manage it along the way. When I picked up the metal grate that covers the jets and found it was sticky and coated in a thick layer of baked on sludge, I was fuming. It drove me mad, to the point where I actually finished a cleaning job and looked for more - an unheard of phenomenon. I vacuumed. I spot cleaned the carpet. I swept. I mopped. By the time my sister-in-law popped in for a visit, the place was worthy of my mother's stamp of approval. I even changed the tea towels on the kitchen rail - yet another something that seems to fall into my area of responsibility. The flat was gleaming. The stove looked brand new. It was pristine. Then I headed out for dinner.

I was out again tonight. When I got home, there were once again unwashed saucepan lids on the stove. There was also cooked on sauce and a chunk of unidentifiable vegetable. There was also a load of washing that had been sitting in the washing machine all afternoon. Too bad if I needed to use it.

Individually, most of the problems I'm having with this girl aren't major. But the whole package, from the way she acts like she is responsible for inspiring any physical activity I take up - hello, woman, I have 2 prolapsed discs, you think I'm going to be taking up marathon running right now? But you're the only reason I might decide to start an activity? Or wait, you're the one who "inspired" me to take regular walks all summer until my back got screwed up, even though you didn't move in until February? Genius - to her complete inability to realise that you need to clean the kitchen floor when you spill stuff on it, or that pasta sauce will stain white cupboards if you leave it caked on dribbling down the front of them for a week or more, it all adds up and it's all driving me completely insane right now. And I'm at a loss for how to approach the problem in a way that won't blow up in my face, because clearly just leaving it until she notices have absolutely no impact at all.

How do you tell someone that you think they're a slob and that if they don't pull their finger out you're not going to be letting them use your stuff anymore? How do you suggest to a flatmate that the experiment isn't working, and that they should find somewhere else to live when the lease is up for renewal? And how do you bitch and moan to a friend who is about to buy a 4 bedroom house, without any intention of accepting the invitation to share that house?

Because L is about to take the plunge into the real estate market. She wants someone to share her mini-mansion, and I fit the bill quite nicely. She knows I'm fed up with my current living arrangement, she knows we rub along well enough as flat mates - or at least she knows she can put up with my more annoying habits, and that I won't kill her for hers. But I don't think I'm ready to go and live in her house, and that's another conversation that I don't know how to have. That said, I think I have more clues on that one than I do on how to kick out my current flat mate. If I could re-negotiate my rent, I'd be happy enough to stay here on my own. But dear god, something better change soon.

15 minutes

It's funny the things that can get you annoyed. Sometimes it's big things - outrage at social injustice, laws that allow on the spot fines for swearing, stripping the powers from the equal opportunities commission, arguing against a carbon tax that could help slow environmental degradation. Sometimes it's pettiness - that newspapers and magazines feel compelled to devote so many column inches to people who just happen to have won the genetic lottery. Today, apparently, it's the completely insignificant that is getting my goat.

I'm on the final stretch of the assignment run. The last one is due tomorrow, and I'm within sight of the finish line. It's so close that I allowed myself a break to watch some TV - Winners and Losers an amusing little comedy/drama about the lives of four women who win the lottery. It was supposed to start at 9, an annoying enough time to start a show in a land where hourly shows start on the half hour or thereabouts, but manageable. Or it is when Channel 7 don't run so far over time that the show is 15 minutes late. And all because of Australia's Got Talent. Australia apparently has so much talent that it can't be edited to a reasonable time slot. It's not like the show is live, folks. They're quite happy to edit other programs so they can cram in more and more ads, but this one they stretch out to make sure there is enough time to repeat the bloody phone numbers for voting lines over and over again.

So here I am, sitting on the couch again (it's a common theme lately, and clearly I've been doing it too much because my back is feeling like it's about to give up again) and silently building up an impotent rage. Because what can I do about that fact that a TV network decides not to follow it's own programming guide? And then it hits me just how pointless the whole thing is anyway, given that it doesn't affect anyone in a life and death way, and I get angry at myself for being too caught up in something so insignificant, and the cycle repeats ad nauseum until my head explodes, or I find my way onto my blog to blow off steam. I think I might just be sufficiently calm to get back to writing about teaching humanities in secondary schools...Although it's on Channel 7's head if something along these lines creeps into the section on civics and citizenship, because Australia may have talent, but Channel 7's programming department is lacking severely in the clock department.

Wanted: Forward impetus

I'm not sure what it is about me that makes me so restless, but I'm currently having a serious bout of career blues. I'm bored senseless at work most of the time, and sick of spending my nights studying to try and get somewhere else. I think it might really just be the onset of a Melbourne winter, and it being just on a year now since I left London. I think I'm entitled to a little angst, to be honest.

So, anyone who isn't prepared for a bit of self-pitying moaning, look away now. I promise that the next post will be more upbeat. Probably.

Everyone who hears about my current study plan gives such a negative response that I've started to believe them. What started out seeming like a great career move for me - get to read kids books without anyone looking at me strangely, get 10 weeks holiday a year, don't need to have the greatest attention to detail - is becoming more and more like something that I will end up hating. Sounds like a familiar tale, to tell the truth. So what do I do about it all? Do I keep studying, in hopes that it works out OK in the long run? Or do I call it quits now and find whatever it is that I'm really supposed to do? Knuckle down, rent a cottage somewhere with no distractions, and actually finish writing any one of the four or so books that I have in various stages of completion so that I can attempt to get them published? Chuck everything in and just work as a temp until I find myself a career that fits? Switch out of my current job into something similar that at least pays better? Or find myself a rich man and live a life of ease and luxury on someone else's dollar? Perhaps hold off and attempt to score myself a job in academia?

That's always been the problem with me and careers, though. There's always been too many choices on the table, and not enough will to narrow it down. Too much dreaming, not enough reality. Not to mention not enough specificity in my skill base. Jack of all trades, master of none. The only thing I know for sure is that I need to make some kind of change. My current work is driving me to distraction with the lack of challenge, and that's without factoring in the monumental levels of stupidity in the people I deal with on a daily basis, from the co-worker who is unable to shut the fridge door (and then unable to hear the annoying beep it makes when she does this), to the nut job residents of the estate, or the lazy arse council workers who take three months to act on something, but still manage an appropriately surprised voice every time you talk to them.

I have to find myself a grown up mature job sometime soon, though. It's too early for a mid-life crisis, and too late for me to be still in kidulthood. I'm a thirty-something. Surely I should be settled in some area of my life by now, rather than in an eternal state of limbo. But no. I'm still in exactly the same position I was in six years ago. And three years before that. And god knows how many years before that. Dear god, I need momentum. Someone give me a shove, please...

Better the devil you know?

I've known L for quite a few years now. We first met in a dance class back in 2002, I think it was. I shared a flat with her in London. She's an occasional reader of this blog - very occasional - and a regular contributor of inspiration for content. Today's post will be no exception, although she might be surprised to read descriptions of her self that are bound to follow. Because as good a friend as I consider her, there are a few things about her that I would dearly love to change, and I don't just mean her obsession with the idea that she is fat because she doesn't neatly fit what she has come to believe is the perfect body shape. There are reasons why we very rarely discuss politics, and one of those reasons reared it's head today.

In many respects, we have similar backgrounds. Our father's both trained as teachers, although mine left the profession when I was still in primary school. We both went to the local state school before moving on to private secondary schools and then to university. We both know what it's like to be in a family that has to scrimp and save, that there's a difference between something you really want and something you really need. And as long as we avoid certain no-go areas of conversation (religion and politics, the twin minefields of most conversational gambits), we get along like a house on fire. But in those areas, our views are such polarised opposites that conflict is bound to arise, and I find myself compelled to challenge her on how and why she can come from where she has, yet still hold the ideas that she does. At the same time, I'm rational enough to think that there's no doubt she has similar queries about my views.

Anyone who has read this blog more than once over the many years I have been writing it now (I think there's one of you out there...) would know that my own leanings are so far to the left that I'm a virtual socialist. I get fired up about the big issues of social inequality, by prejudice, by ignorance. I admit, ironically, I'm not terribly tolerant of people who don't agree with me on these points. Luckily, L and I were friends long before I discovered her inbuilt prejudices against what she today described as "total scum".

Now don't get me wrong here. There are people in the world who would merit that description a million times over. People who lie, cheat, steal, and plenty more. But I don't think that you deserve the epithet simply for being poor and, if you're lucky, working class. Last time I checked, there wasn't a means test on the right to consider yourself a decent human being. Nor was there any reason to think that because there are people of "reduced means" living in an area, people who get their hands dirty for a living, who may not have had the same chances as you or may not have had the same inclinations as you, that it must be unworthy of your attention. Poverty certainly is no justification for being branded scum. Yet L, an otherwise rational person, is so blinded by her prejudice - and acknowledges it - that she would not consider living in an area where there were such people. Nor would she look at an area that was home to many migrants, a large gay population, or any of a wide ranging variety of groups she is prejudiced against in the abstract sense. She is capable of suspending her judgement when faced with an individual case - I think it comes more from an innate politeness that stops her from giving offence - until she actually knows a person and then is more likely to consider them on their merits. Her judgement is so irrational and arbitrary that her definitions are flexible; the English, for example, are not migrants.

Bearing in mind that this is an intelligent, well-brought up woman living in the twenty-first century. You'd be forgiven for thinking that her views were those of a ninety year old woman back in 1952. Although progressive in some ways, she holds firmly entrenched views that cannot be swayed by any logic, views that, until recently when Tony Abbot's political aspirations saw the culmination of a slow drift to the right in Australian politics, most would be wary of expressing for fear of being considered as almost a fascist. I'm not calling her a fascist - I want to make that perfectly clear - just saying that, as much as I verge on socialism, she verges on fascism, the opposite ends of the political spectrum. I might lightly banter with her on the subject of her prejudices, but I sometimes want to hit her over the head about them, until she sees how far to the right she occasionally gets. I'm sure she feels that same feeling about my leftist, pinkish politics. So we avoid the topic when we're thinking clearly. When we're not, we manage to steer into safer waters soon enough to avoid a storm. But I wonder, sometimes, if that's the right thing to do. Because my understanding is that prejudices should be challenged, especially where they appear illogical. Where people who see the world differently sit quietly by while others grow in bigotry, trouble can brew. Sure, she's my friend, but if I can't challenge my friend, what do I do when I see the same bias in a stranger? Where does it end?

On that entirely too serious note, I should probably explain the context of the statement. She has been looking to buy a house, so we were doing the rounds of the open houses today and found ourselves in an area that she was probably less familiar than she might have been. "I guess it's not likely that complete scum live around here, is it," she observed, leaving the rest of us spluttering. No, we assured her. The ones poor enough to fit her definition of scum would not be able to afford to live in the area. They, like her blogger friend, would be forced to rent something a little further out of the city, on the wrong side of the upside down river that messily divides Melbourne's suburbs from each other.

I don't think she'll be buying the house in question, but no doubt she'll end up with something in a similar area. And I can't help but think that the cafes that line the streets where she will live will be filled with a certain type of person, someone who goes out on the weekend to sit with a chai latte and read the newspaper, smugly congratulating themselves on being able to afford to boost property prices to the point where a person earning an above average wage can't get a loan to buy a vacant block of land on the fringes of the city, let alone afford to build a house on it. Patting themselves on the back because they have been fortunate to escape the "scum" of the city, even though the parts of Melbourne where they live were for decades the slums where the scum thrived. And I wonder at the vagaries of a world where two people who have so much in common can find themselves on opposite sides of a fence, staring across a yawning divide that neither one is prepared to cross; the Yarra river of ethical and political debate, and I wonder if I find myself on the right or the wrong side, and if there is any way to make her see that the world is a richer place on this side.

Upwardly mobile

I've been cruising real estate websites while I've been off work (the back injury is healing...so is the throat infection that I got from hanging out in doctor's waiting rooms too much). Part of this was looking for a friend who is genuinely in the market for a new house. The other part was me wondering if there was anywhere in Melbourne I could afford to buy a place. Turns out that the answer is no.

Drives me a little crazy to know that although searching all of Melbourne in my price bracket returns 8 pages of hits, not one of them is suitable. I don't qualify to live in student only developments - and my God, there are a hell of a lot of them, fully furnished one room and a toilet style - nor am I in the market for a car parking space in the city. So I started looking a little further afield. And then I found it.

I found a nice looking block of land on the Melbourne side of Bendigo. Or was it Ballarat? I can't remember now, and it's not vital. Either way, it's about an hour from where I live and work now. A little more research, and I found that I can build on the block for about my price limit. And building in a regional area, I could even get a bigger grant from the government. So there you have it. About an hour out of Melbourne, I can afford a house. Hell, I could maybe even save a little, based on what the mortgage repayments would most likely be, assuming I was earning the same as I am now.

But there's the rub.

There are next to no jobs listed in the country that I qualify for. Nor are there people that I know. Sure, I have ideas on how to meet people when moving to another place now. But do I really want to do it, just so I can have my own place? Surely there is a better solution out there...Trouble is, I have no idea what the hell it is. As a single person who doesn't work in a well-paid industry (or at least for a generous employer), and someone who hasn't managed to save due to a debilitating travel habit, I have no deposit saved. Property prices in Melbourne have risen over 100% in the past decade and, although the market has slowed, are still continuing to go up. So where does that leave me? Renting, that's where it leaves me. Until I decide that the country life is for me. Then? Well, we'll see...

The best advice

I'm going slightly stir crazy at the moment. My back is still not all it should be, so I'm hemmed into my flat quite efficiently. And everybody wishing me well and offering help is actually driving me to distraction.

One of the things I've been learning while I've been if not laid up then at least slowed down, is that back pain is one of those things that everybody either has a cure for, or can recommend someone who does. So much of it is contradictory that it's of next to now use, but people feel obliged to offer up their kernels of knowledge, and I have to accept all of them like a grateful beggar on the street. I might be drawing things in a fairly harsh light here, but I've had so many recommendations of good chiropractors, osteopaths, physiotherapists, doctors, acupuncturists and masseurs that if I took them all up not only would I not be able to move even as much as I can now, I'd be getting shuttled around like a tennis ball, shunted from end to end, as I ran to all the appointments.

It's not that I'm not ungrateful. I do understand that it was concern that drove my grandmother to offer to call my aunt if there was anything wrong with me (although why I wouldn't just solve all the problems by calling my mother, who is not only a damn site closer, but able to drive, I have yet to figure. At the very least, surely I'd just call the aunt directly, if needed?). But folks, really, there's a limit to how much of this I can take, and I've about reached it. Thank god I've been a little more mobile today, even if it was just a grandmotherly shuffle. There's a light shining at the end of the tunnel. And best of all, it's not offering me any bloody advice.

Away from the bright lights

There's been a whole lot of attention focused on Queensland weather recently. And with the massive floods, followed by a cyclone, all within a month, it's little wonder. And it's not just happening in Queensland. Around the world, the weather seems to have gone just a little bit mad so far this year, much to the delight of certain media outlets who feed on the "thank god it's not happening to me" side of the public. And again, fair enough. I can see why the dramatic footage of record snow falls, landslides, cyclones, and raging torrents of flood water attract an audience.

The recovery process is now drawing all the attention here. The proposed levy to rebuild after the floods has been pretty well condemned by many - in spite of the fact that it averages out to less than a dollar a week for most people. The opposition leader has been condemned for attempting to cash in on the floods, running a party fundraiser on the back of the unpopular levy. We're being warned to prepare for sub-standard and expensive fruit and vegetables in shops, with the suggestion being that it's our duty to buy these goods to support the farmers in their time of need (although how we're supposed to know for sure that the damage was caused by floods I don't know; for all I can tell, it might just be that the grocers have found a way to get rid of damaged goods for a ridiculously inflated price). Volunteers are flooding into Queensland to get everything off the ground again.

Don't get me wrong about what's going to be written next. I feel for the Queenslanders who have gone through this. The loss of property and, worse than that, the loss of life, has been terrible. The state is understandably reeling from the events of this year and must be wondering what is going to hit them next. But at the same time, they are not the only ones who have been hit by this, not by any stretch. In fact, there are communities in Victoria that have been flooded out four times in the past six months - farming communities, who had weathered a seven year drought, only to be inundated when they just get a crop that looks good and is about ready for harvest.

And now it's come again. The two cyclones that have lashed the north of the country, weakened enough to be downgraded below cyclone classification, joined forces and headed south, where they ran into another front that was headed north. They all came together over Victoria for a weather event that seems to have had at least one meteorologist all but salivating. There are parts of my state that have had their annual rainfall come down in a two hour period. The Yarra might not have flooded, but the Lodden and Campaspe, the Mitta Mitta, and the Murray, as well as many others, are all up and about. There has been flooding in the north, the east, the south-east, flash flooding in Melbourne. No, there has been no loss of life, as far as I know only one serious injury when a girl was crushed by a falling tree. But please don't for a moment think that what has happened here is any less worthy of attention, because it's long term effects will be just as widespread. Perhaps the most dramatic photo I've seen was not a gushing torrent of water - although there are a few of them from a wide variety of places. It was a photo taken in Laverton of what looked like a swamp. It was covered in dead birds, who had not been able to withstand the winds that came through with the storms that hit the area overnight. Victoria has never known anything like it, and the forecasters say there is more to come. A quick look at the Sydney Morning Herald website, though, you'd think it was any other day. The weather is wrapped up in the fourth lead, a story which deals largely with the combined impact of cyclone Yasi on Queensland, Victoria and the Northern Territory before finishing by saying that the heat wave in Sydney is, in fact, unrelated. Surprise, Sydney-siders, it is summer, after all.

When the people who should be informed about events by media outlets like the SMH are complaining about the flood levy to rebuild Queensland, perhaps it might do to remind them of events on a national scale. Have a thought about the billions of dollars that could be spent here in Victoria, where the area responsible for fruit and wheat is doing it tough. When your bread costs more, think of the Wimmera and their six months of flooding that has wiped out the wheat crop. When you can't get grapes, think of Mildura's fields, currently under about a metre of water. Then look at the $1 a week it could cost to get Queensland on the road to recovery; wonder if any of that cash will make it to the areas that have gone unnoticed, because they have been overshadowed by the bright lights and the spectacle in Queensland. God knows half the people in Melbourne are barely aware of what's happening. How on earth would the rest of the country be expected to know?

The Dating Game

I might have mentioned before that I've been putting a tentative toe back into the murky waters of internet dating. There hasn't been much success. Admittedly, I haven't been pursuing it too hard, but there are a few reasons why. Two glaringly large ones, to tell the truth.

The first is pretty straight forward. Although I've been checking out other people's profiles, I haven't really been up for attempting to contact the ones who were interesting, as a general rule. No good reason why, I just tend to click away before letting them know I'm interested. On the rare occasion that I do click the 'wink' button, there's generally no response. Seems my profile isn't attractive to them. Which leads me to the second reason for my dating fails.

My profile is, I think, fairly straight forward, slightly amusing, and on the whole, better crafted than most of my blog posts. It sets out my criteria as far as age, distance from a set point in Melbourne for them to be living, all the usual things. Yet somehow, this all gets ignored. So far, the contacts from this profile have ranged from the aging locals to the age-appropriate Swiss.

Now call me nuts, but there is something a teensy bit wrong about a 57 year old man winking at a 30 year old, even if it's only electronically. It's old-fashioned and potentially age-ist, I know, but there you have it. If you're old enough to be my father, chances are that I'm not going to be interested in you, whatever you might see in magazines about young women and their billionaire sugar daddies.

Also, if you live across the other side of the country, chances of a healthy long term relationship, not good. Even worse if you're on the other side of the world. And for those who are both twice my age AND on and entirely different continent - perhaps even planet - take the comments above and double them. Triple them. And add in sound effects of me dying laughing at the thought that you meet the criteria of having a bit of a brain.

Yeah, I know, it's harsh. And given, as a friend observed today, that there are no single men left in our age group who aren't single for a good reason, or broken beyond saving by the load of baggage they're carrying, perhaps I shouldn't be so choosy. But dear god, there has to be a better way to meet someone. If anyone knows what it is, please let me know. Because there's no way in hell that the internet is going to work for me.

Monumental Stupidity

One of the hazards - or perks, depending on your point of view - of my work is that I get to deal with the public on a semi-regular basis. Most of the people I deal with are just ordinary folk, going about their business and interacting with me in the way you'd expect as they attempt to get the designs for their homes approved. Some, though, are special.

Take the phone call I had late last week. It was on my direct line - you have to have been running an office on a mobile phone connection for more than 6 months to know just how exciting that statement is! Direct line! Luxury! - and I answered with the usual greeting.

"I was just wondering if you're back from the Christmas break yet?" asked the dimwit on the other end of the line. He is, to date, the most ridiculous person I've dealt with. One of my colleagues snorted when she heard. And fair enough too.

Then there was the landscaper who came into the office today to tell me that someone else had damaged the storm water system, and water was gushing down the hill near where he'd been working. I went up to take a look and discovered that a neighbouring developer had tapped into the water mains on that street and yes, water was gushing down the street, but not from the point where the main had been tapped. It was burbling up from the middle of a nature strip, right about the point where I could see signs that the landscaper's backhoe had been operating. I haven't confirmed anything yet, but I have a sneaking suspicion that it might not have been solely the neighbours' fault that the water was flowing so freely.

There's the serial complainer, who comes in every Monday with a variation on the themes of 'cut the grass so my kid can play in land that doesn't belong to me without me worrying that he'll get bitten by a snake that I'm the only one to have seen', or 'can't you make that person build on their land?' Or perhaps my personal favorite, when is the phone going to be connected? Because I have a crystal ball, and more clout than him in this area, even though for the past 6 months he has been told that we don't know any more about it than he does.

There's the couple who called me back in November to complain that someone had been dumping soil on their (unfenced) lot. I arranged to get the dumper to clear it, but in the meantime it rained. And it kept on raining. Every time a bobcat appeared on site, down came the rain. Until eventually, someone else started dumping. It was inevitable, really. Vacant land in an estate under construction is always treated as a dumping ground for its neighbours. You'd think they'd have learnt from the first lot. But no. A third lot was dumped there over the Christmas break. And suddenly, after I'd done the hard yards and gotten 2 of the 3 dumpers to clear their spoil, it was my fault. I was supposed to advise this couple where they could send the invoice for having the remaining gravel cleared. It was disappointing that they hadn't been aware that we did not undertake the maintenance and security of the land that they were the proud owner of. Have they never looked across the road and seen the mountain of crap that is growing at the dead-end of a street? Or perhaps they might have noticed that our maintenance guys struggle with the land that we still do own, let alone the stuff that we've sold. She should talk to the serial complainer. He's certainly noticed.

Honestly, apart from the stupidity - which is rampant - I've never met a pettier bunch of people than some of the residents of this estate. They complain to each other about us. They complain to us about each other. Occasionally, they will band together and just complain. Loudly. Over and over again. Because apparently, repeating the abuse changes the response into something more favourable to your cause. Yelling at me, yeah, that's going to make me continue to go above and beyond in an attempt to help you. Abuse me now, and then expect me to speed up the approval process for you? It's only going to end in tears. And I think they might be mine.

Yes, I've got January-itus, the illness that afflicts those who have not had more than a week off work in six months. The disease that grabs you when you walk back into the office that first day of the new year, knowing that most people you know are still lazing at home for another week. Knowing that you'll run out of things to do because your industry doesn't fir up until the third week of the year. I've also got off-probation blues, a sense that perhaps I could be doing better elsewhere now I've got a whole six months of experience behind me. The uncertainty that if I jumped ship, like I'm tempted to do, I would end up somewhere that made me actually think, that challenged me, that demanded I put in the hours that I have always hated and avoided.

And in all of this, only one thing is certain. By this time next week, I will have dealt with more people. And more of them will be completely batty than will be sane. Oh the humanity.

Peace, out

My guest has departed the scene and I have my flat back to myself once again. It's a true luxury that I hadn't really appreciated until I kept having to curl myself up on the 2-seater couch, rather than stretching full length on the 3-seater as my visitor did every night (side note: I'm quite a bit taller than her...so how come she always claimed the longer seat?). Two days after Christmas, Guest and I set off on a road trip to Sydney, along with a recently-returned L. That all 3 of us survived the road trip is a testament to the power of biting your tongue, turning the other cheek, and simply walking away when necessary. Because as much fun as Guest was in my flat, she became even more so on the road - and that was travelling in separate cars.

It seemed that nothing L or I did was going to get her pleased about the route and itinerary we had planned for the road. She wasn't happy with the hours spent wandering Raymond Island looking for koalas, until she'd seen enough to make both L and I over-tired and grumpy. She made the almost fatal error of disagreeing with L's pronouncement that the light was gone for photography. If there's one thing (other than Excel spreadsheets) that L can be counted an authority on, it's photography. Guest, with her small point-and-shoot camera that she needed to pull the lens out of by hand to take a photo, ought to have known better than to question the knowledge of the person who was clearly better equipped. When we declared that we were tired and hungry, we were declared to be 'boring'. I notice that we weren't so boring when we gave in to her demand that, since it was her birthday, she was claiming the big bed in a room on it's own while we were in bunks next door. To be honest, I think at least part of the reason for giving in was to escape from her for a few hours.

So there we were, the next day, apparently managing to get her back up again by selfishly refusing to veer across oncoming traffic on a blind corner so she could take a photograph of coastline that looked remarkably similar to what we looked at all day. Things improved a little once we got the part where we - rather, I, as the one who had travelled the coastline as a little tacker on family holidays - had decided stops could safely be made. But even there, having been told that we couldn't see her gesturing out her window, given that we were in a car travelling in front of her and all, she took the credit for "suggesting" various stops. But we gritted our teeth and soldiered on to Bateman's Bay. It was unfortunate that our hotel had also been chosen by several schoolies age kids, who were partying it up in a few rooms. It was equally unfortunate that I was angry enough from earlier events that the kids bore the brunt of it; Guest certainly wasn't prepared to do anything other than moan about the noise, and L wasn't ever going to act on any annoyance she felt. Fuelled by days of pent up frustration, I thumped on the door and put the fear of God - or worse, his mother - into a teenage boy, and frightened an older man hanging out with a few teenage girls into actually acting on his promise to call a taxi. I was figuring we'd need the sleep to maintain the calm the next day.

The last stretch of driving, between Bateman's Bay and Sydney, seemed to me to offer only a few good stopping points - the major one being a minor diversion to Jervis Bay. Before we set off from our hotel, I dutifully informed Guest of the plan, only to have her tell me that she was planning on stopping at any beauty spots on the way through, whether we did or not. Stuck in traffic almost the entire way, I couldn't help but enjoy the thought that the roads stayed stubbornly distant from the coast until the Jervis Bay turn off.

We managed to lose her going through the barriers into the national park, and, in spite of catching her at various points ('Why are you eating lunch in the car park? You should go for a walk and carry your lunch in with you.' 'We saw your car parked there and were waiting for you, we thought you might not have eaten.' 'Oh, shame. You must take a walk through there. I'm off to Cave Beach, see you there.') didn't see her again until New Year's Eve, when frantic texts all morning were more insistent that we be at the park I'd found out about by 9am.

To be honest, I was kind of dreading spending a day with her by that point. But L and I agreed that we would go - although it was 9:30 before we even got up, having "forgotten" to set our alarms - and wait it out. L established herself in a bunker and proceeded to roast in the 36 degree heat. I attempted to steal a little of the shade that Guest had herself borrowed from the neighbouring Irishmen, but kept being told to move myself further down as the shadows shifted throughout the day. Heaven forbid that she should have to shift herself to the other side of me and inconvenience herself in any way.

But still, Sydney does nothing well if not new years. The fireworks spectacular shook a by now very drunk guest lose from her boring friends, and we parted shortly after midnight. She hasn't been heard from directly since. There have been no thank yous for having put her up in my flat for a week, for having clothed her when she moaned about the cold, for feeding her (not just while she was in the flat either, but also supplying her with breakfast and lunch for the whole road trip). There was no acknowledgement of the planning that went into the trip, for finding our New Years spot, for L and I standing guard over our patch of ground while she and the others wandered down to the railing for the best possible view of the 9 o'clock fireworks. The only reason I know she made it home safely is because she posted on Facebook that she'd had a great night. I haven't posted a new status since; for all she knows, L and I ended up in the Harbour when passengers surged to get on the one and only ferry that arrived around 1:30am. Clearly, I am no longer of any use to her.

L and I made our way back to Melbourne over 2 days. They were largely peaceful days, once L managed to navigate us back to where we'd parked the car (it was at her brother's place; given the trouble she had getting us there in the first place, I should have known I'd need more specific directions from the concierge at the hotel to get us there). The early days of the new year were enough to wipe out the unpleasantness of the last days of the old year. Until I got home and found the wodge of ginger hair still stuck on the drain of my shower, the dusting of talcum over the floor, the screwed up mess of bedding in the spare room. And as it all came crashing back into my memory, I was able to take a deep breath and let it all go. Because no way in hell is she going to be crossing the threshold of any place I'm staying ever again. As if thank you was so hard to say.

The art of visiting

I've been playing host to a house guest for the past week. I like to think I've been a pretty good host - provided spare keys so they can come and go as they please, directions at any time of day, suggestions for what to do, and three days of escorted touring that has added about 600km to the mileage on my almost-new car - at hefty cost in fuel considering that it's Christmas. Most important of all, I have taken her along to my family Christmas, making sure that she wasn't orphaned for the day. I have taken her to my friends' Christmas, including buying a Kris Kringle present for her so that she didn't feel left out. I have cooked for her on no less than three occasions, two of them after having been at work all day.

In return, I have had the pleasure of her company, received a bottle of booze, and had my dishes washed twice (although apparently, finding the place where everything goes was a little too much work). I have had my shower clogged with her hair, I have had my bathroom sprayed with water, my tap twisted out of alignment, my spare bedroom made into a bigger sty than I ever managed, every power point touched left switched on, every light in the flat on at various times, a hissy fit chucked when I dared to suggest that on Boxing Day perhaps I might see some of MY friends that I haven't caught up with for Christmas instead of trekking all the way down to the frigging Mornington Peninsula for her to see some friends of her aunt's who she met when she was 20. You'll notice, the one thing I haven't received - any sign of thanks.

I know I won't comment, but I have almost ripped her head off on several occasions, the best one being when she insisted that she knew my mother MUST have a particular cleaning product in the house, in spite of me knowing that she never used the stuff. My knowledge of my mother's house cleaning habits was, of course, inferior, because she dived under the sink and came out with the product in question, and a very smug look on her face (turns out that kitchen benches must be cleaned with disinfectant before dishes can be stacked on them - wiping them with a damp cloth simply won't do). Not sure she noticed it later when Mum picked up the bottle of cleaner and asked where that had come from, because she didn't know she had it. I'm also incapable of even folding my own laundry. A trip to the loo before sorting things into a state that she considered appropriate for them was too big a delay for her. I came out to find her folding my underpants, and not listening when I did everything short of swear at her to get her to bugger off and leave my clothes alone. If I'd wanted to move them, I would have done it myself, as soon as I was out of the loo. We've been mates for a while, but we're hardly at the point where it's fine to fold each other's undies.

Earlier today, when someone cut in front of me as they got on the freeway, and I benefited from the wonderful joy of her driving instruction, about how she would have acted. Me having my foot on the brake was not enough of a response, apparently. I should have changed lanes. I should have done this, I should have done that, because this delightful guest of mine is always in the right, and can never concede that she might be wrong - although she has proven to be so quite a few times. I should know all of this. In fact, I did know it before she arrived, but it had never been brought home quite so strongly to me before. Or maybe it had, during some of the weeks that we spent working together on hotels in the UK. I remember seething with resentment quite often, but knowing that me venting any of it could very well lead to a stand-up fight, so I always swallowed the bile that rushed to spill out of my mouth. And I've done it again this time, biting back the words that I want to say, the times when I can feel the steam about to blow the top of my head off. Or more likely, the top of her head. I'm not known among my closest friends and family for my subtlety, but I'm not close enough to this one that I will blow my top openly. So I seethe and plot revenge, instead.

But if she thinks I won't repay the favour of being the world's most annoying house guest by visiting her in Brisbane in 2011, she can have another think. Of course, I can't chuck a tanty when she doesn't dessert friends and family during the holiday season to chauffeur me around town - her family is still back in South Africa - but I can make life difficult for her. I can run up her power bills, her water bills, I can be messy, I can sit around and watch her prepare dinner after a day at work. I can give her advice on how she should be doing things, I can correct her every thought, wilfully misunderstanding her, and never giving an inch in an argument even when the people involved are talking about completely separate issues. I can do all of this.

The question is, can I do all of that and still keep the friend? I think not, on the whole. And the annoying part is, when she's not being the world's biggest know-it-all, she's great fun. It's just that at close quarters, the fun gets buried in the pedantic crap that she also spews, and the fact that you realise she doesn't know half as much as she thinks she does. I can't see the friendship lasting long-term, in all honesty. But I'll be damned if I give it up before I get a weeks free room, board and transportation in Brisbane.

Bill me

Somewhere out there, some companies have put together a list. On this list is the name of every person that those companies feel can be over-charged on their bills, without anybody noticing. Somehow, my name seems to have ended up on that list.

First there was Lumos, a power and gas company, who keep trying to charge me for power and gas. Two problems. Firstly, they aren't my provider, I go through a different company, which I have told them several times over. They still keep sending me bills. But the biggest reason why I know I don't owe them any money, apart from the fact that my name isn't on the actual bill? It's because at least some of the charges go back before I'd even signed the lease on my flat.

Then the phone company tried it on, adding a ridiculous amount to a bill, but deleting it as soon as I queried it, telling me that if I hadn't been informed about the charge when I signed up, then I didn't have to pay it. The ease with which I got them to take it off makes me think it's a "hit-'em-up-and-hope-they-pay-it" kind of charge. Well, nobody gets one over on this little black duck, let me tell you. Especially not to the tune of $80 a month. It all adds up.

This month, it was City Link who had a crack. I use the toll roads they administer for work, on the rare occasions that I have to head into head office, and even more rarely when I'm heading into town for a night out. It doesn't happen often. So getting a $140 bill for a month came as something of a surprise, especially given that the last month had been a zero balance. I shouldn't have been totally surprised. I'd had a warning shot fired over my bow last week, when they sent me a text saying that my account was being suspended. I couldn't work out why, but didn't get around to finding out why, because I wasn't planning on using it in the near future. But now I want to use it, and I can't. The strangest part is that nobody can actually tell me why my account has been suspended. All the bills that have been issued before have been paid. This one is in dispute, and only arrived in the mail today. The kicker, though, is that the account was suspended 2 days before the statement was even issued.

I have to say, I hate that the roads are tolled in the first place. The most commonly used stretch for me is a road that was built when my mother was still at school. I begrudge having to pay to use it. Before I moved away, I refused point blank to drive on it, out of principle. Notice, time in London has eroded my principles in favour of ease of use. Because it does make my life a whole lot easier, halving my travel time to and from head office. But if the price of convenience is a 25 minute phone call with someone who couldn't actually resolve my query, and could barely enter my problem into the system because there wasn't an automated option, then I'll go back to taking my time to get places. And if they argue that it was my car, I can call in character witnesses to help defend me, because anyone who knows me at all would agree, there's no way in hell that I was passing under one of the City Link gantries at 06:50.

So I'm issuing a warning. I've had enough. Any company that thinks it's OK to over charge me, or add false charges to my bills, don't say you weren't warned. Just ask Virgin in the UK. I am capable of prolonged phone calls where I am able to maintain anger and coherence, all at the same time. It might have taken me a while to get Virgin to do what they were supposed to, but I know how to do it now. And I don't have the cash to throw away on the whims of some accounts department screw up. If you see my name on that list, cross it out. Because one way or another, I'm not paying and you'll regret sending me a bill for something that I didn't use.

You're kidding, right?

I made the mistake of reading the Herald Sun today. It's always a mistake for me to dip into the tabloids. They only end up making me angry. But what can I say, it was the only available reading material at work at lunch today. So I read it, and proceeded to get angry.

See, it seems that the Australian PM has been visiting the other countries in the region, and she took along her partner, who the tabloid in question has patronisingly dubbed 'The First Fella'. I had thought that all the ruckus about having a female prime minister, and an unmarried on with a live-in boyfriend at that, had died down. I figured that the conservatives had resigned themselves to the fact that a woman is just as able to do the job as a man, and that anyone - even the PM - can live in sin if they choose to, without endangering the well being of anybody under their care. After the lashing that Bettina Arndt received following her comments about the relationship between Julia and Tim, a piece of writing that set Australia back about 50 years in most people's opinion, I had thought that it would all die down.

Except now it's flared up again. "Serious" media has commented on the man's dress sense and presentation, as well as her choice of clothing. But today's little stinger took the cake. Because apparently, the fact that Julia took her partner with her on a trip to Muslim countries has made her unsuitable to lead the country. It's supposed to be insensitive, and to have caused all of the leaders to pull out of meetings with them. Yeah, because people who live for politics let somebody's relationship status come between them and a potential route to power. Just as likely a reason for the cancellation of the meetings - which probably wouldn't have been made in the first place if her living situation was truly an issue - was the fact that there was a volcano erupting in Indonesia - a reason also given the Hilary Clinton for not meeting her this week. In Malaysia, the leader is said to have chicken pox. Yes, a potentially life threatening illness for adults, especially difficult for adult men. But no...he's faking it to get out of a meeting with the promiscuous woman who travels - shock, horror! - with her partner.

If she was a man, who installed his mistress as a secretary in order to take her with him on business trips, would there be so much comment? And perhaps the greatest irony is that the people who are criticising her for being insensitive to the Muslim beliefs that prevail in Indonesia and Malaysia are the very same people who attack the backwards world view of Muslims arriving in Australia from the Middle East and North Africa. What the hell, people? I know there are plenty of people who don't agree with living together without being married. Fine, you can have whatever beliefs you choose - that's the luxury of living in a developed, Westernised society. But don't think that it's OK to impose those beliefs on others. And don't think that as Australians, we have to choose our leaders based on the beliefs of countries in our region. Because those beliefs will never match each other perfectly. And at the end of the day, surely our leaders ought to represent our own beliefs? Call me nuts, but just a thought...

Welcome wagon

I love my new flat. Really, I do. I've been almost 2 months now, and it feels like home. I've got things how I like them, my stuff is everywhere, and I love having my own retreat from the world. Not least of its plus-sides is that it is 6 minutes from work.

And for the most part, I like my new neighbours. The senior citizens downstairs are friendly, the women in the next block always smile and say hello, the gardener is hot - as he should be - and very friendly. But the guys who share a landing with me have a little bit to learn about how to not piss off your neighbours. So I thought I'd compile a list of tips, all the things I'm too chicken to say to the white shoe wearers.

1. Never, ever play your music so loud that it rattles the plates in your neighbour's dish drainer. If they can hear the words - assuming, of course, that there are words - it's too loud. If they can feel the bass as they sit on the couch, it's too loud. If they have their own music on but can still hear your combination of turkish pop, rock, and south american pipe music, it's too loud. Same goes with your television, the football, in fact any kind of noise.

2. Don't fill your neighbour's bin the day after they have been emptied. How do I know it was you? Well let;s see...you has a party in the stair well till all hours, the bottles in my recycle bin are a lovely combination of girly sweet drinks and turkish liquer, and there's a collection of chip packets, pizza boxes, and styrofoam takeaway containers; I'm guessing it isn't any of the pensioners.

3. When you drive past my window, I should not be able to hear your radio.

4. When your friends arrive, there is no need for them to cluster on the stairs and have conversations that would seem loud if they were in my living room. Get them inside, shut the door, and shut them up. And they shouldn't have to knock on your door. Be an adult and get a door bell.

5. Smiling and waving in a Joey-from-Friends "How-you-doing" way is not neighbourly. Especially when I've seen your girlfriend.

SO there you have it. My tips for the cavemen next door. Now all I've got to do is get the ones on the other side of the fence to change the program on their swimming pool filter to not start at 9am on weekends, and it will be the perfect flat.

We've gotta stop meeting like this...

So I'm back in a settled existence, working, seeing friends, blogging, and it only seems fair that it was time one of my other stable occupations kicked in: I'm back on internet dating sites.

Yes, sad but true. And right now, I'm wrestling with levels of frustration that I should be familiar with, but somehow always strike me as something out of the blue when they come.

First there was the guy who messages regularly, seems interested enough, but never quite gets to the next level. He seems happy enough with just chatting via the keyboard, which I can see will get old fast. I've dropped all sorts of subtle hints, from the usual what's going on this weekend, to asking questions about cooking, where he goes, what he gets up to. Nothing shakes him loose. But without fail, every time I log on, he's there with a hello, however much he makes me work for anything more than that.

Then there is the guy who seems to have dropped me since I wouldn't add him as a Facebook friend. We've chatted a couple of times, and he seems nice enough, but I don't want to friend him, and have to explain to Dad, my aunt, my sister-in-law, my cousins, and various others, who it is that I've just added. It gets awkward. And that's without considering howmuch of my life he would have had access to. But he hasn't messaged me since I told him I hardly use Facebook. A little lie, but nothing too serious. His loss.

But I've saved the best for last, because he's such a cliche. The guy who opens with the line "I think you're hot" and doesn't appreciate it when the "compliment" is brushed aside with a flip comment. Apparently, I'm supposed to reply "Thanks, I think you are too". Catch is, I don't think he's hot. He might be interesting, he might be intelligent, but usually, guys like this, they aren't hot. If they were, I doubt they'd be scouring the internet looking for a girlfriend. Luckily, I have a handy blocking button I can push, and he has now been consigned to the interweb dating scrapheap.

Men. Honestly. Even through a keyboard, they still seem to have no clues. Of course, I'm so much better, given that I'm sitting on the other end of the keyboard, just waiting for a message. Because a girl can't be forward, she can't initiate anything. Lord, the hypocrisy.

The curse of suburbia

I live in the burbs, always have and probably always will, truth to tell. For the most part, it's not as bad a place to live as the intelligentsia would have us believe, provided it's approached with right attitude and a good set of neighbours. Growing up, I was pretty lucky. We only ever had one bad lot, the ones who would call the police to get our games of street cricket moved on, the ones we used to collect dog poo to leave on their doorstep, that sort of relationship. My new flat, well, things are a little different.

For the more part, I put up with my noisy immediate neighbour. I don't think he has any idea of just how loud he is, to be honest, and the elderly downstairs neighbours are probably too deaf to notice. As long as he keeps to a dull roar, I can usually deal with him. And his music. And his excessively loud-talking friends. And his stomping up and down the stairs at all hours. It's fine. You get that when you live in flats. I don't like it, but I deal with it. The problem neighbour here, I've never actually seen them; they're not an immediate neighbour, there's a house between them and me. But oh my god have I heard them.

They have a dog. I think it must be a puppy. Again, never seen, only heard. Because they don't tell it to shut up when it sets up with continuous barking at night. All night. It sets off all the yappy neighbourhood dogs. I'm guessing that they're telling it to shut up and let them get some sleep. I know one day I will be out on my balcony telling it that, if this keeps up. That was last night. Today, worse, if anything. It seems that the return of good weather has brought out the lawn mowers. Fair enough, I have no objection to mowing the lawn. It has to be done, and I'd rather they did that and kept the seeds under control so they don't make me sneeze. They did it this morning. Then, based on the sound of things, they did it again this afternoon. Then they had some sort of motorised thing going that I can only assume was doing the edges. Except they must have really sucked at using it, because they did it again. And then again. And once more. Then just once more, because they'd obviously missed a bit. In all, I think they fired it up about 6 times. And each time they did, I couldn't hear anything that I had going on in my flat. No music, no TV, no thinking. And I need to think. Because I'm still writing a thesis here.

In fact, they're out there again. I think they must have moved to the front of their house, because it's a bit fainter. It's not drowning out the sound of trams or traffic, birds, my stereo, my brain. It's just sounding a little like a dentist's drill now.

They clearly don't realise the risk they're taking. I've been studying for days straight, only moving away from the laptop to get on the wii fit and work out some of the kinks - I swear, if it wasn't for all the crap I eat while studying, I'd be fit as by the time this is done. But crap I am eating, drinking, inhaling. It's so bad, I actually craved vegetables last night. I'm hopped up on a combination of sugar and caffeine that I'm sure could trigger a heart attack in a lesser mortal. And now there's people messing with me. I'm hoping that either I get the thesis finished (pfft, like that's going to happen this side of 3am) or they turn off the bloody whipper snipper. Otherwise, I've got a fairly good idea that a local medical team will be performing a gardening tool extraction procedure later today, and it won't be from me. It's taken all my self-restraint not to litter this post with swear words. Don't think I've got enough left to deal with much more.

Troubled times

Approaching the half way point of the epic road trip, there are several problems that have reared their ugly heads. If I'm honest, I should have foreseen at least 2 of them. The rest? Well, nobody has perfect foresight, but hindsight is 20-20. Hopefully, I'll be able to avoid making the same mistakes again in the future. And some of the problems are beyond my control, so I just have to resign myself to dealing with them and moving on.

See, there are few things worse on a road trip - or any long trip, for that matter - than being sick. And so far on this one, I've had a cold that turned me into a travelling snot block between Boston, Philadelphia and Washington. And then, as we pulled into Chicago - snot free at last - I realised that I'd done something to my back. Something that made walking extremely painful. Potentially, something caused by driving through the storm from hell the night before - that's what I'm blaming. It's mostly eased up now, after experiencing Chicago largely by bus rather than the usual method of transport for L and I in cities - foot. But now, every time I have a long drive, every time the bed isn't just perfect, it twinges. I have to be extremely careful carrying my enormous pack, and I hate not being able to just throw it around. But physical impairment pales in comparison to some of the other problems.

Because whilst driving through some of the flattest, dullest scenery that America has to off in its northern states - thanks Iowa and Nebraska - L has become sulky. She's bored. And this has uncovered a fundamental difference in our travelling philosophies that was masked while we were jetting around Europe. She's all about the destination. And I mean ALL. The journey itself? Well to her, that's just the prelude where you plan what you're going to do when you get there, so anything that takes longer than reading the Lonely Planet is just wasted. Whereas I - the instigator of the road trip - am quite well able to cope with long stretches where there is very little to see. I'm not sure if it was my early training, taking long car journeys up through Australia's eastern seaboard, or if I'm just taking the Baroque view of things, where the journey is almost more important than the destination, but either way, I cope better. And by the end of a long day, where I have done the bulk of the planning and almost all of the navigation, since L struggles with map reading on the go, we're both niggly. And things get said. Like the bit where, after the longest day on the road that we will have, we were pulling into a budget hotel in Sioux City.

It was getting dark quickly, we'd missed a couple of turns and had to back track. All day I had been asked questions that I didn't know that answers to, that I couldn't know the answers to, never having been to any of the places before. And when she cruised into the car park - or what we thought was the car park - and asked what I thought was an idiotic question before accelerating so I couldn't see where to navigate her (because I have to tell her where to go, she not being used to or comfortable in unfamiliar places), I snapped. I told her to slow down, to stop asking me things I couldn't know, to take a look for herself. And we barely talked for the rest of the night. We unpacked the car in complete silence, she threw her stuff onto the bed (always the best bed...I don't know how she does it), and we went to dinner without her doing more than nodding. Last night was hardly better when I informed her that spending an hour at Mt Rushmore (which I knew would turn into 2 hours if I agreed to 1 - I know her photographic habits too well to rely on estimates of time to see places), at the expense of a couple of places further down that I really wanted to see, on a day when we will be spending around 8 hours in a car, that just so happens to be my 30th birthday, is not something I'm prepared to do. Sure, we'll be stopping there. We will see it. But she knew going in that this wasn't going to be an easy trip. And I think she underestimated just how much road time we'd be logging, and just how unprepared for long boring stretches she would be.

But not all of the problems relate to her (although her tendency to open the curtains before we're fully dressed, regardless of the outlook - or in-look - has caused me some anxious moments, as has her drifting and abrupt driving style). Perhaps the biggest problem is that I am fast running out of money. Boston and Washington DC sucked up too much of my cash and I'm now in the unenviable position of looking like I'm barely going to make it into the 3rd week of the trip before it's all gone. And when it's gone, there is no more. I have no resources to tap into. So how I'm going to pay my share of the car extras is beyond me. Although part of that is also caused by L and her insistence that she be put on as an extra driver, even though she refuses to drive in any of the cities and only does a few hours in the morning when we're in the country, or the evening when we've left a city that morning. Bam, there goes $145 of my carefully planned budget.

That's not to say that I'm not enjoying the trip, though. As I type this, I'm sitting in Custer, with a view of the Black Hills on the other side of town. Today sees us heading through the Wild West, towards Cody, and then Yellowstone. I'm loving what I've seen so far. I just wish there weren't niggles and worries to get in the way. And I've resolved never to do a road trip with L ever again.